the choices we make

my question of the day: what would your response be when choosing life means dying now?
I spent most of the car ride from the hospital thinking about the irony of this question, of choosing god and eternal life over life on earth. some of the confusion might be in the definition of life. the rest of it, i think lies in understanding god's complete and faithful sacrifice for us. To remember that he took on flesh and died for us and that no other departure could be so painful would suggest that leaving this world is not all that terrible and in fact, with hope in God, it is plainly better.

Dr. Ghosh has said that the tumor has infiltrated most of my father's left brain hemisphere and that it may have metastasized to the right side. i can't lie, that was and is very scary news. and, and i am still upset that we could not have gone in for surgery a lot sooner. the diagnosis of a 5 cm x 5cm brain tumor was made on October 23rd and we did not go into surgery until today, November 17th. That...that is absurd.

BUT i have hope that with even our stupid choices and careless mistakes, God's hand is in our lives and He will take care of it.

peace and blessings.