date - less

my sister told me that her mother in law told her not to remember dates and to just remember the life and the moments. so i guess i'm not looking at my watch and recognizing that it's been a little over a month.

today i lit a candle for you. i stared into the faces of your many photos. i wonder why i stare. each look, each glance reminds me that you are not here but i continue to stare. yo ingrain an image of you into my brain before my memory fades.

ba. con nho ba rat nhieu. con sin ba co ngay tot dep voi nguoi tuong.

step 1 - repeat - revisit

okay today my heart reaches in for a memory of my dad and me together - we were on a boat surrounded by the crashing thunderous roars of niagara falls - there is a hole in my heart where memories were scraped out and pulled to the surface.

how i want my heart to feel: peaceful and appreciative of that moment in time and space.

amen?

just wondering...
when do i stop wondering how you are?
when do i stop missing you?
when do i stop seeing you in photos and dying myself inside?
daddy - i miss you. i can't believe you're gone.
what's next? what's before me? what's behind me?
how do i do today?
it was too short.

life...you kill me sometimes with your madness. i was going to post this thought in my head on fb but then i got smart and realized it was too extreme for social media nonsense. who cares?

darn inception - it was so good - and it makes it so hard not to question reality.
people are so shady.

nuff said. this one for me goes on.

looking forward to tomorrow.