alone time.

...not too able to write, no coherent thoughts
so just a couple of words strung together to clear my mind
lauryn hill would be nice
pandora? ipod please.
give me soul
and i'll give you passion
no alternative slow aching rock
dear wide eternal water stream reflect on me
ah peace
or not, more like frustrations from an extremely slow computer
how bout missing daddy
i hope you know i'm thinking about you
and mom, sorry i missed your call. should have called right back.
i love my family.
i miss my family.
thanksgiving...

goodnight.

fleeting, precious moments of life, how do i capture all of you?
classical beats drum in peaceful background
memories pulled out of online photographs
delicious smiles
eternal stares
life is fleeting yet eternal
help me find you here

dream state

last night i dreamt of two dime sized neon green colored frogs. i had them in a small case but they leaped out when i opened the plastic zipped up fist size breathable container. they went everywhere, even outside on the otherside of sliding glass doors. one in particular, i think his name was something child-like with the added pet name "y" on the end: greeny or something. he was cute. very cute. the other was more tamed, but still bounced off the walls before i caught him and put him back. when i finally got greeny, he had jumped into my father's arms and told my dad that he loved him. my dad smiled. i smiled. It was a beautiful glowing moment. then i took greeny into my little palms, off of my dad's chest, and i stared up at the man that raised me with "i love you eyes." I turned, in one hand i had greeny, in the other i searched easily for my green pencil box and i dumped out all my pens, with some hesitation, before i gave greeny and the other a new home in my pencil box. over time, in the course of minutes of dream, my frogs and i developed the sweetest friendship. i would let them go, and they would always return home.

i woke up happy.
love,
hang