permission to pursue

Thank you Pastor Michael Todd for the sermon series on relationship goals. It's such a powerful message even at 35 years old. I wish I had heard it sooner but what can you do? I wanted to write about what "permission to pursue" has revealed to me because it feels so BIG. The very heart breaking idea that these things/people/places in my life that are causing me harm is because I DID NOT ask from God the permission to pursue. WHY NOT seeking wisdom from the wisest, from our creator. Even if in disbelief you ask, what do you have to lose?

So here I am, 12/16/19 fully aware of the mess I am in is because of the decisions I've made WITHOUT HIM (our all loving, full of plan/purpose for our life designer), reminding myself/praying for wisdom/guidance to be reminded and to keep HIM FIRST. SEEK first the kingdom of god and all things will be unto you.

I'll slip up, I forget, or maybe I won't - May I continue to ask God first/put him first in my decisions. Does this please him? Because in that, through that, ALL MY TREASURES/REWARDS are just waiting...

Finding vision

several months ago, I discovered the world of self help books, possibly all by chance but perhaps more true, I needed/I need help. In that time, a pneumonic has stuck with me: SAVERS. The idea and concept is inspiring from a slightly sycophantic book titled The Miracle Morning, but nonetheless inspiring: Wake up early and make time for yourself. It may be 5 minutes or an hour BUT take the time and use SAVERS to remember how to get the most of your time: S- silence, A-affirmations (the world is full of toxic can't do attitudes, don't be your worse critic, be your greatest champion and AFFIRM yourself), V - vision (visualize you/where you want to be, engage all your senses as if you have already achieved this vision: the essence of the best selling SECRETS), E - exercise (get blood flowing throughout your body/wake up your senses), R - reading (you are not alone, there is help out there, read), S - scribe/write. 

So, here I am, not quite morning, more like my son is asleep, 6 years has passed, maybe 10 years, and I need to write. I need to find my purpose/my vision. It's so easy to be lost: to wake up, do things that need to get done, go to sleep, wake up and do it again, get frustrated, do it again - no passion, no purpose. 

So, what is it? What is this passion of mine? To help people find their passion/purpose so that they can give to the world what they were meant to give. To help people achieve health in body, mind, spirit. To love my family. To raise James that he may know God and get to serve Him - that he would make the choice to let God manage his life. 

For me: Be one with God's given purpose - to be intimately connected to our creator. To be a witness to His Miracles daily. 

Well, that was not what I expected - I thought it would be some long, drawn out process, but that's it, that's what I want to/get to do with this life I've been given. 

May you rest in knowing that there is a purpose for the life you have - take the time to discover it - or live it.